the Virgo part in me

Well...I'm surprised to find out that the last time I blogged was a year ago...do I have nothing to blog about? or do I just refuse to blog the things happening to me throughout this whole year?
People always say Virgos are perfectionists...for the past 24 years, I never did realize a part of me being perfectionist..I'm not really hygienic, my work and handwriting isn't that tidy and neat, my table is in quite a bit of mess, there's always a pile of laundry in my room, and so on...now that I'm 25 and when I look through the few posts in my blog..yea I found the perfectionist part in me..and it was with me all the time...

I'm very afraid of being judged..I'm afraid to put up details of my life and being judged..all this while I'm leaving under others' shadows..every step I take I look around and make sure there's no one to judge..I've never really did something I want just because I want it..I always think how would people I care about think of this thing I do?or how would people I dislike judge and criticize what I do...this is quite creepy because I even care about the feelings of people I dislike..who are they to affect my life actually?
Sometimes its really tiring to cater for everyone's need..but I do feel the satisfaction when people I love I care about feels happy or recognize my actions..should I continue with this creepy character which is supposed to fit the "criteria of my horoscope? or should I change and just mind my own business?